The hardest thing about being depressed for me is that overwhelming sense of repetition. In feelings, in thoughts, in my mind, a replay of events happens over and over. What truly went wrong? What makes sense? Are my friends bored, sick and tired of hearing the same melancholy story? Should I allow myself to be…
Today is different. Tomorrow will be great. And last night, well, last night I had a “come to Jesus” with myself. I’m over this. I am so over this emotional roller coaster over someone who, quite frankly, doesn’t deserve my love. I realized so much after I finished typing my post last night. I said…
I feel like I can’t go on. I feel such immense pain inside that it renders me useless. I barely eat, I can’t sleep well, and I feel like I’m breaking down anytime I’m alone to think. I get myself out of the apartment, see people, have dinners, but I come home to the same…
I have tried multiple times to sit down and pen something, but when I do, I’m unpleased with the words I’ve written. I try forming different narratives and yet, nothing seems worth posting. What I can say is that my mind is always working on what to say, both for the purposes of my blog…
About Last Night In that quick instant when my eyes shut so fast and I saw every color as a burst of light, I truly believed my life had come to an end. I had fallen to the ground before I knew exactly what happened. I didn’t even have time to think about bracing my…
Yesterday was quite draining. I was on a business trip, and mind you, this was the first one I have been on since N left that required me to fly. I felt like I had PTSD when I went inside of the airport. The last time I saw him in person was obviously at the…
One of my most meaningful possessions is a notebook my mother wrote for me in the early 90’s. In it, page after page, she expresses her story in the hopes that as I grow up, I will be able to have more understanding and acceptance of what has happened in life. Each entry, she reminds…
